My current relationship with my phone

For those of you who happen to call me, I don't mean to ignore you. I just want to explain a few things about me and my phone. I acknowledge my behavior, I'm not going to change, but I just want to give you a heads up.

1. I very very rarely return missed calls without a voice mail message. Meaning, I don't know if you actually have something to tell me or if maybe your phone called me on accident.

2. I have suffered from insomnia since I was 13 years old. Currently I can't fall alseep until around 6-7am. So calling me before say, noon is a bad idea. I won't pick up, simply because I take sleep whenever I can get it.

3. I get bad reception in my house. 'Nuff said.

4. I get bad reception in most stores, and I'm out running errands alot.

5. 90% of the time that I am in my house, I am away from my phone, and thus cannot hear it.

so.. umm yeah.
sorry for the missed calles
leave a voice mail, if you want me to call back
oh and yeah.. if I leave a voice mail, call me back

A shadow lurks in my past, feeding on my grief and sorrows

- "Return of the Past" by AzianMu

The Lessons I've Learned

You can never go home again.

But this may not necessarily be a bad thing. When I left for college, part of me expected my home life to remain exactly the same, so that when I returned home over breaks life would just pick up where it left off. But when I returned home this was not so. The people in my hometown continued to move on just as I had. It was a little selfish of me to expect the world to end since I had left, and in the end, I think I feel better that it hadn't.

Perspectives on the same event can range miles apart

It was once said that history is only the winners version of the truth. In looking at the world around me it seems like everything is in shades of gray. Hanging out with multiple people (at the same event) you can see that the same event can look totally different from everyone else's view. So never accapt one side of the story, always try to look at everything and figure out what makes sense.

I can not control the way other people think

People's thoughts are their own, and there are times when I don't agree with what they think, but I should allow their thoughts to be their own. Hee Hee, but sometimes giving my side of the story doesn't hurt. =)


The value of a good friend

This is such a BIG IMPORTANT ONE! Sometimes you just need to get a text message, or a quick IM, or a phone call from someone to totally brighten your day. Even if the news isn't really that good, its just nice to hear his/her voice. Or sometimes you just need someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, or an sympathic soul. I love all my friends so much, because they are the ones who made me who I am today.

The only person who I should expect to take care of me is myself

I'm old enough now that I shouldn't have to depend on my parents for everything in my life. Nor should I have to depend on my brothers or other family members. I know that I can always go to them for help, but the person who will always be stuck with me is me.

Though I am a busy person, I have no one to blame but myself for losing contact with friends

That's just my bad. Its odd that sometimes I am scared of calling people whose numbers I used to have completely memorized. But as life changed for me, so did it for them, and I worry that we might no longer be compatible. But sometimes it works out for the best (like Hudson's b-day party last year which was a blast). So beware, the random phone calls may begin soon.

Once I discover who I am, I must try not to be afraid of it

I am terrified of failure, and so even though I know what I really like to do and really want to make a career of doing it, I'm so scared I'm going to fail. But I guess it's better to try and fail than to live a life of regret. But then again, its always better to try and succeed.


The value of a good education, and an open mind

As much as it was hard for me to drag myself out of bed in the morning, to slop through a rainy Davis morning to catch a crowded bus to sit in class, wet, cold and miserable, I have learned that the education I have really always me to see the world in a broader scale. By no means is my education complete, for I still have alot to learn, but I am glad to have such a broad base of knowledge and experience to draw from. Also, that edcuation would not be worth anything without an open mind to learn more and look through other persectives. ( I mean, maybe it wasn't such a good idea to read The DaVinci Code while on a religious pilgrimage through Europe, but it was very educational and eye-opening to see two differing views at the same time.)

To listen to that little voice inside of me

Why? because it's usually right.


Sometimes, sadly, the need to face reality and see the bad in people too

I tend to get my heart ripped out and stomped on, usually several times by the same person. I guess its time to maybe just give up on people. but, i just don't want to.

eXpressive: 6/10
Practical: 2/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 6/10

You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear.

Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes. Most people take your laid-back attitude, blazing wit and subtle sexiness and stick you in "friend." But some see your extreme hotness for what it is and latch on. This means you have a few members of your target sex in the bank at all times -- I call this "money in the sex bank" -- but you're too sensitive and thoughtful to exploit them. More than once.

You are so rational and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever, but your press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this! An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you. It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything. When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off.

You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type. If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying. Of the 38474 people who have taken this quiz, 8.9 % are this type.