its been a while...

hasn't it.

Hey all, I'm back
I'm alive
I'm in one place (well not really)
Life is hopefully going to settle down for me soon, but not too sure yet.
The major legs of my "world tour" are complete.
Though little things are popping up all over the place. For instance, my aunt just bought a house in Las Vegas and she wants me to go see it next weekend. Right now I am in Davis becuase I needed to be up here to run the fanime con meeting. In may I will be heading out to Utah to visit my dad's family, and the end of May is still fanime con.
Life has been really crazy, I have not spent more than a week/a week and a half in once place in the past 3 months. Not that it hasn't been really cool to get to do all the stuff that I get to do, but its pretty tiring you know. Right now I feel like my life is at its transition point and all the travelling is keeping me from moving on, but the major problem is that I don't know where I am going to move on to.
Its terrifying.
Plus all the other things I want to do, goals I have set for myself and other things never seem to get any closer. If anything they seem further away.

I have noticed that from the time I was born, so much of my life has been dictated for me. And now, when I have the real chance to make my own decisions, I am so scared to take the next step. To find a career, well I could try to go out on auditions and everything, but I'm so scared of failing all the time. Do I take a job just to bid my time? But when will I ever get out of it? Am I just kidding myself here?

so what happens now?
where am I going to?

I don't know
I really just don't know
I used to have all the answers, but now.
I'm stuck

I have more to say on this, but I just can't right now
probably going to head off to bed now

sweet dreams everyone