If anyone's worried for me, I found my escape.
(if you can't tell, yes... it is a Hershey's Kiss that about a foot tall, a real kiss, filled with little kisses... yum)

I'm about to speak... so listen

How am I feeling right now? I'm actually alright. Been thinking about friends and family and where I am, and I guess I'm ok. I mean ideally I would like to be working at a job that pays me more, and living out on my own. But I like my job, my co-workers and even my boss, so I really shouldn't complain there. They even like me too. I hope. =P.

In finally looking at the comments on my post a while back, I really realize something. I started to wonder what is love? I mean, I don't think I know how to do it. Maybe I do, but maybe I don't. I mean I love my doggie, and all the shades of crazy he is. I am terrified of losing him. I wake up in the middle of the night just to make sure he's breathing. I hate people being mean, or not understanding him. I get mad at him too. and it breaks my heart to punish him when he is being bad. Doesn't that mean I love him?

I feel the same way for people in my life. If I don't say it enough, or I don't say it at all. I love you all. Whether you are hundreds of miles away or in the next room. Sorry I'm no longer there to be your baked good supplier. =P Know that I think of you all the time. Everyone, who has affected my life, and turned me into the person I am today. I can't say that I love myself yet, but I know that you guys love me, so I'm sure I'll be able to do so one day. I just think I hate feeling like I'm stuck with no way out.

But thank you. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for taking the time to come out and meet me whenever I come to visit. Thank you for putting up with my always crazy schedule. Thank you for forcing me to eat and sleep, when I don't think those things are important. Thank you for going along with my crazy ideas, like making you dress up for fanime con or driving to vegas just to eat steak. Thank you all for everything.

I love you.